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So, you know those "wow" moments? I assume we all have those, though it might just be me. You know those moments when pieces just start to fall in place? When you feel like you finally get it? Clearly, these moments come most often after a few alcoholic drinks.

Those moments, when you finally get it, they are amazing. And they are always so true. Undeniably. Like, "wow, how did I not see this before?"

Unfortunately, no, I'm not talking about the antivirus. Still waiting results on my last batch.

But I saw my future self. And I didn't hate what I saw. It was an image that given a different mindset would have made me feel like shit. But with my current state of mind, which is more likely than not transient, it seems sort of romantically perfect. Because I know certain things about myself that will never change, certain things that will shape the rest of my life. I guess we all have these things, these essential facts. And when applied, predicting the future is not so absurd. If you know what I mean. And you may not. But I can see it. And it is definite. And no one will ever convince me otherwise. It's not necessarily what I want, per se. It is what is going to happen. And acceptance of that is a good feeling. Will I have the same feeling in the morning? Probably not. Will I have the same feeling everyday for the rest of my life? Probably not. But if I can just remember this moment, this moment when everything made sense, when the pieces fell into place, when my inevitable future didn't seems so shitty, maybe I'll be able to handle it.

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